Fabian Koh Hong Yi
Temasek Polytechnic, Mechatronics
23rd November 1992
Scream At Me
Wednesday, July 30, 2008
I don't point to people randomly. Trust me, I have my reasons.
Tuesday, July 29, 2008
Two-faced mother fuckers. :D That's all I have to say today. Other than that, today's Chemistry test, I've officially screwed it. &I won't be suprised if I fail for it. Haha, if not, why say "screwed it"? So now, the song dedication for the Two-faced mother fuckers! :D Be grateful for this song dedication you bunch of ingrates.
You're no better, Reflect yourself in the mirror. &Think, what makes you think,
you're greater than others. Thick-skinned, lying, motherfucker.
Monday, July 28, 2008
Hmmm,
Today was amazingly scary. Hafizah came to school, still not completely fine from HFMD(Hand-Food-Mouth Diesease). Then, when Miss Loh came to know about her being in school, still ill with the diesease. She hurried over to my literature class, to send her home.
The only main point today was that, the social problems we have in our class. Well, all according to Miss Loh. She's upset with the fact that, even though they have gotten a high contagious diesease. They still came to school, not knowing the fact that they are actually getting more people into what they have. HFMD is a diesease that has killed small children, so why not able to kill adults? Who knows. Haha.
So yes, she's really upset with the fact that people like Sarasvathy & Hafizah, came to school even with HFMD. Hafizah is actually alright from the effects of the diesease, but due to the scars on her hands & all, from the diesease. Miss Loh has taken precaution to send her home. But after that, in class, most of us felt the itch getting on to us even though the class has ventilation & not depending on aircons.
Due to this, maths has been cancelled, so has Amaths, due to the fact that the bacteria is still around the class, so during the time we were supposed to have Maths/A-Maths, the whole class was being disinfected. Hahah. I have to admit, it's pretty scary seeing how painful it is to have HFMD. I don't want tooooooooooooooooo get eeeeeet!
Hahaha, so yea, okay. I've got the album by The Used, Lies For The Liars, and The Used, their EP. &I heard the song, Liar Liar(Burn In Hell). I found it pretty cool, so yezx, here's a empty video but with the song. Also I just managed to get Death Star, the lastest album by DGD(Dance Gavin Dance). Hell yez, it's better than anything they've done. Includin the demo tracks, Attack of the Dashing Young & Bold & The Rain In Vietnam (The Robot Vs. Heroin Battle Of Vietnam Demo). Both of their demo tracks are really good. Go youtube them to hear them. :D
Me & Zoloft, Get along real fine. Just like professors, &Their invention, Robots.
Saturday, July 26, 2008
Awesome-ness.
Hell yes, I found a few new bands (: Four Letter Lies & Fair Fight. Woohoo.
Hmmm, today, I was actually thinking, i'd stay at home the wholeeeeee day. But I texted Shan Qi rather he wanted to go play billard today, so since he was at his grandma house. We went, met up at 5:00p.m. Tian Haur & WeeLong went too. So yez, we did play.
Wa lau, you know. I was winning actually, but FOULED all the way, damnit. &Lost the most expensive match ._. $8, with WeeLong. So now he owes me $4, hahah. So I went off home earlier than them as I had to come home & take care of my sister ._. I seriously hate being a baby-sitter.
I walk, Up the staircase. Through the door, to find a light is beaming,
down across her hair. &It's so she need's to say, &I'll feel fine, all the moments in my life. Has led to this, which's is all worth.
Will you walk with me? Cause I can't see.
Wednesday, July 23, 2008
Awesome? Nah. It's just Fauxhawk, hahah. Got caught by Miss Jarina today. So I went to "cut" my fringe. Hahaha, I didn't do anything to eet, but instead, "shaved" off my sideburns and the back into a "V" shape. Well, near V that is. My fringe's thinner now, so I'll be able to use gel to place it up & not get caught anymore. Heh.
So ehhhh, the right's the front and the top, whereas the left is the uneditted back. It's not properly spiked up though, but hell. I won't care much,
I know I look like a bengzx in the right picture, ahaha. But I usually smile okay! :D
I'm emo, that's why I have the fringe covering my eyes *rolls eyes. Obviously I'm not. Ahahahah. Well, one thing I hated today, was mainly just standing on the hall ._. Hearing people say, GO HOME CUT, GO HOME CUT! What, my fringe longest means must torture me? You know how embrassing that was. But, whatever, at least I still have my fringe.
Monday, July 21, 2008
yay, the simplest pleasure of life. Watching Guns N' Roses MV! :D Ahahaha, this is good. Anyway, thank you Anis. For taking a snapshot of me. Heh. :D
This was taken when I went out with my Malay classmates to watch Batman : Dark Knight. It was pretty fun, haha, cept the fact that everyone had dates D:
Today, 21st July 2008.
Stressful day, haha, ultimately. Tomorrow too, I had to stay back an extra hour even though after SSP. Hahaha, for not doing my literature homework. Man, she got so fierce for the first time. Freaky when she screamed at us & told us to rot outside the class, ¬ to do the homework we owed, cause we'd have to stay back to do her work till 5.00p.m anyway. So that's it for today, was supposed to go do Social Studies homework with Joachim and Kok Chai, but we were all too tired to move out of the house, when we went home. Hahaa, doomed. I did my physics & d&t, amazingly. But looking at the paper, I've completely no thoughts on how to do it. It's so confusing, hahahah.
Someone introduced to me a new band today, &the vocalist's voice is really nice. I'm really impressed. :D
It's Bedlight for Blue Eyes! :D Hear this song out, it's not all hXc like Exile & all. His voice is just, calm. Well, good bye to everyone for the day.
My memories will,
Never lose to time, &I'll make you. Proud of me.
Sunday, July 20, 2008
Hahaha, I had fun yesterday. Loads of it. Well, cept the fact I was feeling like the odd one out. Haahahah.
Okay the best song EVER. Seriously!
It's the best of the best! :D That's all for today, I'll post about Saturday 19th 2008 some other time. Hah. I didn't manage to go to sentosa though.
Friday, July 18, 2008
Hahah, I talked to FeeFee with webcam and all just now. from around 11:10p.m onwards. But now FeeFee went to bed already as she has training early in the morning tomorrow. Okay, back to blogging about today. During school's character development period, I played Chinese Chess with Sherwin, & WON. HAH, IN YOUR FACE. After school, we went off to eat at Mac' Donalds. Eaten, talked to ShanQi about tomorrow's trip to Sentosa to play beach volleyball. &What to do later in the evening. We decided to go Ang Mo Kio Hub to play billard. As nearly every usual Friday. Hahah.
So played finish, I had to rush home cause my little sister was hungry. &there wasn't any thing considered dinner for her at home to eat. I went to buy Mc Chicken Burger for her & some sweets. Rushed to the interchange and managed to take the 73. Reached home and gave her the burger to eat. Hahah, she amazingly thanked me.
So later, about 8:00p.m++ FeeFee wanted me to come online, I would've anyway. Went online, talked there, kept talking and all, and around 11:00p.m. I think she randomly just said she wanted to hear me sing, cause she wanted to laugh at my GAY voice. Evil, much.
Okay, I sang for her since she felt a little down & all. &I asked, I can see from the webcam that you are on the brink of crying(I think that was what I said, I forgot). So she said, I was about to cry, before. So I questioned her, "before?" She said :"Before you started singing." Then I was like, WOA, she didn't say something mean for the first timeee, AWESOME! Haaaaahhaha. Then she said I was auntie cause I asked her to sleep early ._. Then later, when she was going off, she said sleep early. So I said, you're a auntie what! She pointed me a __ I got pwnz0r3d. Hahahaha, not really though. Okay that's all for today. YAY, tomorrow. Sentosa, finally again.
I think that the truth, Is that I'm scared. I also think that the truth, Is that I'm everything I hate.
Thursday, July 17, 2008
Fed up?
Well, for today, I did nothing much. Actually, today was the usual school day. Yez, with irritating D&T stuff to draw that's all. Today was just a tad bit special, NO SSP! :D That would be all, went to eat with guys. Later on, took a bus home. When the rest went off to near Serangoon Central area to play soccer. I wanted to just lie down to appreciate some acoustic music, so yez, I didn't go play soccer. &As usual, they made fun of me cause of not going to play with them. What's wrong not going to play soccer? Obviously nothing, but oh well. They wanted to insult me & all. I would just let them do it as usual, it's always been like this for 4 years. They've pretty much not changed at all. I don't know if that is a good or a bad thing. But still, if it makes them feel better about themselves when insulting me. I don't mind, seriously. After all, I've always been used to this since I've grown accustomed to the insults in school. I'm lucky there are people around me that will listen to my emotional rants & all. Like Chee Sen and Shan Qi, thank you, both of you. Hahaha, Chee Sen, I must have really scared you when I got so emotional for the first time in 4 years. But duh, there is always a point where a certain person can no longer bottle up the anger they have kept inside. &Needs to release them by just talking to someone about how they feel about others. Call it backstabbing partially, but everything is based on facts. Unlike them, I would rant on them, using descriptions that already is the truth. Rather than creating lame jokes, & all, to give themselves a laugh. Call me an asshole, cause I know I am one. But are you better? I doubt so. If you make fun of my image, how better are you compared to me? Not a tad bit better at all, sir. For all of you to know, this words are spoken to not just 1 person. But all in general. I've always not insulted all of you, if I did, it would be cause I think you've crossed the line, & also cause I think I'm no different from you, & not any better. So I don't have a position to curse, swear, and insult you based on your intelligence, looks & etc. All of us are 16years old now, any time soon, which would be really soon. We would get into JCs and Polytechnics. It's time to grow up now guys, really. It's just not cool to insult people so much about how they look anymore, be it jealously or cause you just hate them. It's time to act your age, everyone. We're 16year old kids. Anyway, this words are written down cause it makes me feel better to say this, rather than just scolding people. If you're unhappy with what I said, sure. Be unhappy, but actually. I was just letting off some steam off my chest. Cause I think I've "tanked" enough insults to be allowed to say all of this right now. So say I'm emotional, say I'm a scene kid, say I'm gay. In the end, does ganging up on your OWN friend and insulting him make you feel powerful? If it does, your a loser, much. Compared to what a loser I am, you would be worst now wouldn't you? Remember, 16 year olds. I think we would be the most childish bunch of 16years old around, cause I've never seen other 16 year olds act the way we do, wherever we are. Trust me, what I say are all the truth & if you think I'm saying about you, I just might be.
So here's a song by Relient K. Who I am hates Who I've Been, it's his acoustic version of his normal song. It's pretty good, that I have to admit. It pretty much means a lot, it's included in his new album, & also in Punk Goes Acoustic. Enjoy the music.
I don't want you to know, where I am, cause then you'll see, my heart in the saddest day, it's ever been, &this is no place to try, &live my life.
Wednesday, July 16, 2008
Uh Huh,
Today was pretty much boring. Hahaha, went to KFC at Rivervale Plaze today to eat my lunch, and then went home, other than that, nothing much to say already uh.So yes, today I listened to another acoustic version of the song by Relient K. The song is Who I am hates Who I've been.It pretty much describes how I feel. Cause I do hate what I've always been, & I pretty much am better than who I've been, but I still hate myself a little.
I'm sorry that,
it took me so long to change.
I'm sorry that, I'm not one to hold you there.
Tuesday, July 15, 2008
The most awesome-est song in the century our parents used to live their youth. Hahahah. It rules, I loveeeeeeeeeee Slash!
Today, I brought my PSP to school. Hahaha. On the way to school, I played God Of War, I got stuck, hahaha, so I paused and went to school to ask Aufa. So yez, I got over it with his help in what to do. &Now I'm stuck cause the minotaur and hell archers are raping my 455. Damnzx, I don't care about it anymore, I'll play with it after I cool down from being pissed. So yes, damn you spartan modeeeeeeeee of God Of War! *makes fist and shakes it.
Hell yes, My Sweet O' Child rocks, hahaha. :D Slash rules! I can't help but saying it. Oh yeeeeeeeeeeeeeea, today, Joachim borrowed a pair of spectacles(with no degree) from Hui Xuan, and wore eeet. He looked funny, hahahah. So I decided to try eeet, I wore eet, and after Hui Xuan took a picture with Joachim when he wore the spectacles, hahaha. She saw me wearing eeet, so she took a picture with me when I was drinking my bubble tea. D: It made me look totally emo! I WANT THAT PICTURE OF MEEEEEEEEE EMO-ING! Okay that's all for today.
We shook hands. Took a ride on the steeds of the sun. To run to the end of the underworld, to stop darkness of ruling, The earth once more.
Monday, July 14, 2008
Well, for the day of 13th July 2008
Honestly, yesterday, I felt really helpless after I listened to a song, Three Cheers for Five Years by Mayday Parade. Cause, it made me think so much on the way home from VivoCity. Before the emo-ing reasons are out, I'll talk about how lousy Red Cliff is. As you all know, Red Cliff is also known for the Battle of Chi Bi & That was why I wanted to watch it. So yes, I got the tickets, went in to watch with my brother while my mum and sister went to watch Hellboy(they said it was pretty good).*SPOILERS ARE COMING*
Yes, you've been partially warned, hahahah. Okay so this is what happens, mainly, it would be to watch for the main battle. The Battle of Chi Bi. BUT, the show was about minor battles before the battle of Chi Bi. &That's when I got really upset, cause, they only showed what they were going to do, but never showed the war yet. Fancy wasting 2hour++ of my time, to see the preparations for the main thing I wanted to watch, what's worst. We paid $10 for eeeeeeeeeet, like, wtfux.
Okay, so they said in the end, every formation has a weakness, no matter what it is, we just have to know it. So in the end, Zhuge Liang sends off his pigeon to do some "scouting". It gets back, they show a map full of the enemy ships on top of it. & does one thing, just lights the center boat on fire. Bham, they placed 3 fcuking stupid shit words on the screen.TO BE CONTINUED......
Awesome! I wasted my life watching Red Cliff when there wasn't even much nice battles. Only there was one nice one, the rest were boring. It was then the Zhuge Liang decided to use the Ba Gua(It comes from a tortoise's shell, not the food Ba Gua) formation. &Traps the enemy in sections and slowly kills them off, as they let the generals like Guan Yu&Zhou Yu out to fight and all. Which was pretty funny, it looked like it was a game. Slowly unleashing each boss and all. Hahahaha. Level 1, then level 2, then to level 3.
Hah, okay. Spoiler's over.
The emo-ing reason was that, the song, made me realize what a loser I must've been all this while. I don't go out with friends, I don't study. I don't do anything, I don't have a life. Also, it made me think, how nice would it be if I were to fall in love with someone nice. Someone so real, I could actually hug. Rather than a girl that will always be wasted on my dreams. It honestly made me depressed cause, like. I was thinking even if I were to love someone, that person wouldn't want to be my priority right? Cause I'm such a douche bag, loser, asshole & all. I'm not close to being nice at all, am I? So what's the reason for a person to even like/love me? Fact is. Ans: None, that's why Fabian doesn't feel any love. After thinking awhile, I've realized how much I long for someone I can lean on, for me to be someone else's priority, &for that someone to be my priority too. Other than studying & all.
I don't even know any girls, they don't talk to me, I don't talk to them, cause Idk what nice words I would say. Only a few nice friends would talk to me, &accompany me throughout the day, other than that, no one. It's always me, trying to talk to them via sms, msn. But they never ever do reply me, do they? Hah, irony much.
July 14 2008.
I realized if you type "July", you can also type "Hulk" easily, hahaha, lamezor. So today, we got back our maths test marks on algebra & as expected I failed badly. The reason for the amazing failure in maths would be, I didn't have the time and was too busy thinking about other things than a small minor test. Which now, has officially made me work harder for maths too. I can't believe I got 10/40. It's the first time I even failed a maths test. ._. Okay, that's all for today. I'm really sorry for not being able to go play Billard with you guys. My dad got home unexpectedly early, &he wouldn't let me out even when I promised that I'd be back fro dinner. Ah well, sorry SQ, QX & guys. Well, that's what happened today, the more interesting part would be above I guess. Have fun reading on how emotional I am. Hahahahha.
Too late, I'm sure. At long last, it's just another night. Another dream wasted on you. Just stay, here now, against me. You know the words, so sing along with me.
Saturday, July 12, 2008
Awesome-ness. Damn it, I just cut myself again(Screw D&T). D: Damnzx, I suckzor. Will update later, going out at 7++ for pool. Hahah. Off to play my guitar.
Friday, July 11, 2008
Dear Diary, I've cut myself today badly in the Design & Technology room. With my finger's cut in really deeply. With the skin flapping around. Which hurts like hell when I wanna pull it off, damn that sucked. What happened was that, I was drilling a hole into a PVC, it suddenly got stucked onto the drill & amazingly flew up and when I moved my hand aside, it minorly cut my left hand, & cut deeply into my right thumb. Hell yes, that felt great. Seeing the blood ooze out when I wash it in the tap, during the adrenaline rush, it's pretty normal you don't feel anything. So yes, I didn't feel anything, Mr Peng was over there, rushing to take out antiseptic cream and plasters, while the blood continued oozing out(Pure Awesomeness). Other than that, I went home, with parts of my D&T stuff to do tomorrow morning before going to school to touch up for D&T. Screw eeeeeeeet. I went out today to AMK Hub, but first went to AMK Library, to see SQ doing his F&N, trust me he did do, as much as you & I don't believe our eyes. I went to find the storybook I've always wanted to read, but couldn't find it anywhere, so I guess I'll have to buy it at Times.
After that, the Library closed at 9, &I was dying of hunger(I didn't eat dinner at all). So we walked out at 9.00pm to go get something to eat, we did. So later, Gerard, his girlfriend, & Tian Haur was waiting for us at K. Pool, so we hurried up to play. Damn it, first match, I lost at 4th position ): So I had to pay, duh-uh. 2nd match, I wouldn't won at 2nd place, buttttttttt, I fouled when I hit the black ball wrongly ): Reducing my points from 29 to 22, which means Gerard's girlfriend won me by 4points. So thinking that I could still win, I accidentally "parked" for her the brown ball(4 points) & she scored in the ball, making her 30points, totally demorallizing me. So SQ, Tian Haur & Me, went to pay the table money. Which was 6.60 total for the 2nd match, damnzx. Meaning I lost a total of freakingzx 4.20 for the stupid 1hour of billard! But well, it's worth for a training session, lolzor. Okay, good night everyone. Including you my beloved diary.
The moment I held the key,
The whole world closed on me. The moment I ruled the world,
was the moment I lost my sanity.
Thursday, July 10, 2008
Hahaha Hahhaa, today, I stayed back to do d&t. &I just spent my whole day doing d&t I guess. Considering I came home after D&T, &again doing it at home. To make 3 pages for my cd rack for like 2hours(I think). O:
Currently now, I'm laughing at the Teevee programme The Showdown. I've got to admit, the speakers are hilarious. Hahahah. This is hilarious.
Oh yes, I read friendster & saw Wendy saying that she met an car accident and has a MC for 4days. I hope you're fineeeeeeee! You'd better be, so you can go help me find pokemon shirts some day(If you ever read this), hahahah. Anyway, I think I have nothing much to talk about today. Lol, cept the fact that today. I played God Of War on the PSP. &Hella loveddddddddd the awesome blood and all. :D The blood and fighting was awesome, so yes, I like it. I like gore, so whatttttt, big deal, Fabian's a sadist. That's good, no?
Wednesday, July 9, 2008
Woooooo, I had Chinese Basic lessons today. &yez, it wwas fucking boring! :D That was about the whole day, today we had a test on algebra & for the first time ever, I did not have enough time to finish all the questions. D: So yehz, I had some blanks, doomed, I'll fail fo sho(for sure). Okay, that was it, that was the day, boring? Of course it is, it's a school day, including chinese basic after school, how boring is that. Oh oh! The most interesting thing today was that, Chinese Basic Lessons allowed us to watch the show Secret by Jay Chou, the piano thingy. The piano battle was hella interesting, other than that, it was pretty boring. Hahahah. Okay that's for today. &Here's a new Music Video, on Pray for Plagues by Bring Me The Horizon. The Vocalist hair is AWESOME, so silky-smooth(Zohan). Okay, so the lyrics are here. Pray for Plagues - Bring Me The Horizon
FLYYYYYY! She starts her new diet, of liquor and dick, Just like Hollywood but laced in sick. The sun goes down and so does she.The sun goes down and so does she. Sold out the love that she had left with a cut of the throat. Drinks all round on her before she strolls to the moat. The sun goes down and so does she.The sun goes down and so does she. Count your fucking...Blessings!Come on!Count your blessings, Because I'm counting every lie.Count your blessings,Because I'm counting every lie. Counting every lie.Christ, I'm asking you for just one thing I'm asking you for just one thingEradicate, this disease.Close your eyes. Pray for plagues. Oh Lord cleanse this earth And bring upon our doomsday. Close your eyes.Pray for plagues.Cleanse this earthAnd bring doomsday. She starts her new diet, of liquor and dick, Just like Hollywood but laced in sick. The sun goes down and so does she.The sun goes down and so does she. So clap your hands to the soundOf everyone first born dying now. Watch the rivers flow with blood Death with stand were life once stood[x3]Close your eyes. Pray for plagues.Cleanse this earthBring our doomsday.
Tuesday, July 8, 2008
Pure awesomeness.
Holy shit,
I'm drop dead tired today, cause I hardly managed to catch some sleep yesterday. Most probably was cause I slept too late during the past few days, affecting the time "usual" sleeping time. Anyway. today was usual, had Chem practical lessons for ssp today, including Physics practical lessons during class time. &Went through the re-examination Physics paper during ssp. HELL YES! I got 47/65 for it, hahahaha. That means I got an A2, and FYI, the retest isn't the same paper as the exam one. So yes, it's an achievement for me. Well, not really though.
Well, today was insane actually, I realised that if I did not do my Social Studies homework, which is the N' Level paper on the Three Gorges Dam project. I would get my name written down onto the Pink Booklet,in other words, I would have my parents called up and suffer a huge scolding.
So, as mean as it is, I rushed my social studies during 35mins of English Period(Whole of it). I managed to finish A, B and D. I handed them up, with a blank on C. Giving an excuse as I don't know how to do, but actually, it was just cause I was too lazy to continue anymore. Okay, well, that's all for today. &Suddenly, I have the urge to find a decent girlfriend, fuck I'm desperate much.
I admit I long for a really long term relationship with a normal girl that is femine. But it seems impossible for me to get a girl as I am right now. Everyone thinks I know really a huge bunch of girls, &I have a variety to choose from. Fact is, no, I don't talk to girls, I do. But I hardly talk to any, &No, I doubt any girl would like me cause I'm such a dirtbag and all. Okay, enough of self-pitying. Off to talk about yesterday.
On 7th July 2008,
Dear Diary,
My beloved listener(cranky shit). I had truckloads of fun today. Except of the fact that Koh Bifang(Not my sister, she'd be an embarassment). Made me laugh like crazy, &embarassed me at the same time. Why? This is why, I called her a bitch for fun when we were waiting for the show to start. &She said, call me a bitch one more time, so I said:"Bitch!" Jiahan was sitting beside her with nuts. So she took one nut, and tried to stuff it up my nose. Like, zOMG! I was like, saying :"what the fuck!" Luckily, it didn't manage to go completely up my nose*laughs. It was a failure for her sadly, Jiahan started laughing like a tard, so I laughed at myself for not knowing that she'd do something as stupid as that. Hell yes, she's crazy. I knocked her on the head(Lightly, duh), and kept poking her and scolding her a crazy shit or something. Hahahaha, she said stop, so I did. Other than that, it was pretty fun and all, cept that we had to decide for at least half an hour or more. We stood outside the Nokia shop at the basement at Plaza Singapura, and hell. I looked up, I saw this girl. She kept staring at me, if I'm not wrong, I'd think she that she's someone I know, cause she seemed familiar. I'm guessing, she's Valerie? Okay, I think it was her, but I didn't do anything, she & her friends went down the escalator to where we were standing, & She & her friends were talking, they took glances at me I guess, since I doubt they knew anyone else among my current group I was with. Honestly, I thought I did something wrong to them or something. Cause I think I've always offended people by accidental bumps or something. *laughs, but I've never been in trouble with other kids. OH & HELL YES, there's this group of people. 2 guys and 3girls. Wow, when I and my friends were eating at the foodcourt upstairs, you know what they did, my dear diary? Since there were 5 people, and they were sitting on a table for 4, one of the guys was a "extra" shit and sat outside of nowhere, hell yes that was really easy to differ. No only did that ugly shit act all big with his arms like a typical gangster. He kept staring at my friends and I. Well, we stared back of course, well, not me though, cause at first, I didn't know who they were referring to. I know I'm slow, I blame it on my intellectual abilities, I lack social skills & all. So after awhile, I know who it was, but I didn't bother. Okay, we stood up and walked off, he looked at us, I turned back to clearly stare at him. Hah, he's funny. I wouldn't brag that I'm all brave and all, but I would certainly dare to stare at him. We went to pee and all, went up to wait for the girls to come and buy snacks for the movie&such. He walked past us, I guess I was the only one who noticed, so he looked at me, I looked at him, his girlfriend(I think). Pulled him along, but of course, he didn't stand still to look at me. He walked off slowly, so I continued looking at his direction(not staring). I was just appreciating my music actually, but I guess he thought I was staring, he kept taking glances backwards. Well, even if we were to have a fight, which I doubt we'd ever start it. Cause we aren't violent kids. We'd win fo sho. I'm sure you're asking why aren't you, my dear diary? It's cause we outnumber them, counting 2 girls as 1 guy, they would make 3.5 guys, which we have 6/7 guys, roughly being 2x of what they are. Oh well, that's all for that day & all. &I got a flu after bathing yesterday, today being the 8th of July. Shit, the tendency to talk to guys saying that why can't I have decent girlfriend which sums up to a long term relationship is starting again. *controls.
Can anyone tell me a good free WMA to MP4 converter? &it's place to download it, I wanna place "You Don't Mess With The Zohan" & "Bruce Almighty" into my Ipood. Till tomorrow. All new fav. band is. Bring Me The Horizon! :D Pray for plagues RULZOR.
I look into your polished eyes. I see a man, using a doll to represent his soul. A claw is a claw, no matter blunted or painted.
Monday, July 7, 2008
Hmmmmmmmmmmmmmm, too tired to blog. Had fun today, &Bryan bet with me $10 on something, &lost. But didn't pay me in the end, chicken shit. Stupid excuses you give. Pussy. Well, school's on tomorrow, till then. I'll talk about what happened today, when I get back from tomorrow.
Sunday, July 6, 2008
Hahhahaha, I am back home finally. Well, today was pretty fun. I hate elaborating on it since I'm so tired. But I would like to say, today was good. Cept having to wait 1hourALONEat Marche at Vivo City. Like wtfux, my mom and sister was busy shopping, while I was in the hot non-windy night sweatting my balls off(Marche had a ultime long line). I was supposed to queue up with my mom at 7:30p.m. But she went shopping and forgot what's called time management, and came over at 8:20. &considering I went there early to que, I queued more than an hour I think. I got fed up cause my mom always talks about being on time and all(Fancy her not doing what she talks most about).
She made an excuse saying, we were walking from the end of Vivo to here mah, that's why so long. Like, ._. It only took me like, 5mins to go from the arcade to the Marche, how long can she take? O:
Ah damn, I won't vent my anger anywhere, cause I'm supposed to be happy right now. Lol. My dad bought a awesome huge ass 42inch LCD TV. Yay, &Now I'm watching IronMan again on it. It's niceeeeeeeeeeee.
Okay, end of today. &&I could have sworn I saw someone oh so pretty, that she looked so familiar to me. But oh well, too bad I don't have the balls to do shitzor when I see people or something.
The face of a Man that longs to see,
His soul. Muttering about the moments,
We didn't even share.
Saturday, July 5, 2008
Lyrics for, NJ Falls Into The Atlantic.
It's 4 am and we will stalk again. The princess and your better queen. On the fourth day of july. Deep in summer's eye, Naked like the truth should always be. So speak your mind. (Dont folow, with your foot) All this pain here. (All comes from, your trial) I won't listen. (Your memory, is bleeding) My lies are faced with blue. Coming straight from off the wires. Southern face and drunken father. Crying as shes carving in her flesh. It's 4 am and we will stalk again. The princess and your better queen. On the fourth day of july Deep in summer's eye, Naked like the truth should always be. This falls on (All palm trees, and trash heaps). This burning bed (Where my eyes, will not sleep). Watching romance from a far, See bleeding from the glass on my feet. Learning I love the smell of flesh. It's 4 am and we will stalk again. The princess and your better queen. On the fourth day of july Deep in summer's eye, Naked like the truth should always be. An angel, on his two knees. Arms stretched, toward a red sea Of violence, and assultry done. The scenic, view of carnage. Caused by, the sore in his hands. The beauty resonates in birth. Its plain to see, the wind beneath the trees. Flowing free, the summer breeze is sweet. But in this place, I'm choked by my own air. I love the taste, of your blackened lips. It's 4 am and we will stalk again. The princess and your better queen. On the fourth day of july. Deep in summer's eye, Naked like the truth should always be.
Oh yes, Happy Birthday to my now 17th year old brother, Varian Koh Hong De.
Wooo.
I think I get to watch Hancock today. :D With family at Vivo City later on, it's better than nothing I guess. Heh. Oh yes, enjoy the song by Light This city, it's good. Really. Oh yes, I'll stop blogging now, till later in the night.
Awesome live performance by the awesome band, Light This City.
Rawrrrr. Hahahaha, today was pretty fun, cept I wasted 1 hour to go to Toa Payoh, and in the end, I was undeage to enter the stupid snooker room. ._. Well, in school today. Was really happy/weird/awesome. Cause my dearest Angie, gave me a cupcake saying: "Hello Dearest❤ from unknown." Since she did that, obviously I wouldn't know who is it till she told me, or was it from someone else. I forgot. Okay, so the main point now is that. Here the story comes.
Early in the morning I went to buy 3cupcakes, 2 for Angie, and 1 for myself, since I thought. Since I'm such a total ungrateful asshole, no one would send me any cupcake or what so ever. So wanting to try out the cupcake, I ordered one to be delivered to my classroom, so I can eat in class. The name was empty too, so yeh, I expected a empty shit, and just a cupcake in it to eat.
Here he comes, the delivery man with cupcakes. I took it without feeling suprised, but looking at the message on it, there it was. The one above. I got shocked and wondered who is it from, the only dearest I had was Angie. Hahaha, so after school, I went to find her and ask if she had the cupcake I sent her, she said, pretty telepathic huh. Cause, we both sent each other similar messages, cept that she has the ❤ sign behind, with the unknown and that I had a (: face with my name on it.
So yea, it's freaky but heyyyyyyyyyyyy, it shows that we were meant to be. (P.S We're not in a relationship.) *giggles. Today was fun after school too. We went to play pool at AMK Hub. Hahaha, me, Tian Haur, ShanQi & Weelong. I lost all the matches la, wtfux. I actually won the first round by 7points, but accidentally screwed up ._. losing. Being dismoralised, I again made another mistake, and totally lost everything. During the second match, being totally dismoralised, I totally gave up. So the chain of fouls continued in the second match, &I let Gerard take over me since I had no mood. Later on, we went to near Tian Haur's house to eat, WOW, it's nice and it was sooooooo cheap. A huge ass chicken chop with mashed potato and coleslaw and a bun for just $4.50. &the cheng teng there was only $1.20 for the usual sized bowl. Pretty cheap for the prices in other areas now I guess. :D
Oh well, that's it for today (: I'll stop here already, wooohooo, I had so much to blog about today! Suh-weet.
For the Sake of Salvation. We Kill, We Rob.
Thursday, July 3, 2008
Calling All Cars by Senses Fail. Old School, yet good. Be sure to hear it. If you want it, talk to me in msn, I'll send it to you. :D
Wooohooo.
For the first time, I managed to reach home before 5.00p.m on a Thursday! Suh-weeeeeet. Man, today was D&T SSP, I went to finish up my last part, but realised I still have my emblem(Maybe I won't do it), and another iron rod to bend properly again. Man, I promised myself to finish it up
Oh yes, I remembered that I have Social Studies Task 4 to do. &I still have no idea how to link people. hahaha, I'm sorry everyone. I'll link you all when I know how to do it properly. I'm watching Lilo&Stitch now. Heehee, it's nice! :D
Well, as for what happened today. Hmmm, the most exciting thing today was during MT lessons, as I'm a epic phail in Chinese. I take Chinese Basics, yesyes. Mock me all you want. So at the classroom, Jiahan and others came into 4E2 classroom, with cards to play and all. Wen Chuan and her classmates also skipped the lesson and was in the classroom.
Other than that, nothing much was exciting already. &I also have to do Physics now. I'll be off now, byebye. Anyway, I'll be posting a new music vid if I'm bored later on.
Regret will be your bride. So I'll Pray with my eyes closed.
Goodbye, Goodnight, forGood.
Wednesday, July 2, 2008
Woo, the video for Hey John, What's your name again? by The Devil Wears Prada.
Mehhhhhhhhh, it was one of most boring days of the week I guess. Wow, I actually blogged again, lolzor. Okay, so today was a killer for school, fuck. They fucking gave us two test in a day. Screw eet. It was like, bloody racism shit for SS. &a poem which was pretty much easy. But I did not manage to complete my SS ): Well, after school, we went off to Compass Point again, &ate at Mc' Donalds. Well, another reason for going there would be to see Darren (amazingly)mugging, with the help of Mr Luo.
Well, that's all the interesting things for today. Maybe I should post the poem since I've got nothing much to do, afterall, I'll be playing games later.
*licks lips* Mmmmmmmmmmmmmm, Mummy's coming back with Curry Chicken Noodle, wooowooo. Good food's coming my stomach.
Well, for a nice WoW like game, head on to a new game made by YouXiLand. http://www.returnofwarrior.com/ They have an event going on during the weekends. Having 2x EXP and DROP rate. Well, you guys can try it out if you want. Haha, it's really fun when you're high level enough to PvP people. More details on the game will be on the website.
Meh, I just changed my mind about posting the poem, too darn bored. O:
Come on A Skylit Drive, hurry up and release your bloody album "Wires".
I long to sing and dance with you.
Please come with me and let me show you that I know, that at times it may be hard. Where's the Underground Palace's
Queen.
Tuesday, July 1, 2008
Rawrrrrrrrrrrr! This is my first time, making a blog. &A huge thank you to Nichell. For making the skin for me. d:
Well, today was pretty much the usual. Going to school, listening to lessons half awake. Today was considered a "School-Ends Later than Usual" day. Cause people had Amaths, and we had to wait till 3.00pm to attend our extra lessons. We ended at 5.00pm++ today.
Joachim, Song Wen & I went off to find Angie, Bifang, and Melody after the lessons. We just went there with an intention to actually just say "Hi" and "ByeBye" to them. But oh well, since they wanted to go to Compass Point, I & Joachim also went together with them. Melody went off home, since we decided to go to Compass Point. Angie supposively wanted to take Bus. No. 156 with us home. But in the end, she had to go off because she was rushing to tuition at Hougang Point. &I told her we just missed the bus. So she had no choice but to take the faster and more frequent bus No. 159. Meh, I hope she'll have a safe trip to school tomorrow. If that bastard tries to touch her again, I'll freaking chop your little peanut-like balls off. Including your eraser-sized penis.
Wow, I realised how fun blogging is actually. I can actually curse all I want here! O: Woohoo, my ranting area, suh-weet. Okay, I think I should stop blogging now. It's gay, well, pretty gay. But not that gay till I won't blog.
I would wait four years just to feel you,
Again.
A Touch of Poison Seals My Fate
Bands I am currently listening to :
Alesana, Armor for the Broken, Aerosmith, AFI, All That Remains, Avenged Sevenfold, Cobra Starship, Bless The Fall,
Bullet for my Valentine, Scary Kids Scaring Kids, Guns N' Roses,
Sex Pistols, Silverstein, Saosin, Circa Survive, Emarosa,
I Am Ghost , Dance Gavin Dance, Alexisonfire, Here I Come Falling, A Skylit Drive,
The Devil Wears Prada, Bring me the Horizon, Escape the Fate, Underoath, Atreyu, Chiodos, Taking Back Sunday,
Sum 41, Red Jumpsuit Apparatus, Trivium, The Blackout, Hopes Die Last, The Unseen, Three Days Grace,
As I Lay Dying, In Fear and Faith, Enter Shikari, Eyes Set To Kill, The Amity Affliction, The Human Abstract,
A Static Lullaby, Sasquatch, This is Menace, Luna Halo, The Sleeping, Art of Dying, Point Defiance, Everything At Once,
No Connection, Classic Crime, Opshop, 32 Leaves, Hypnogania, The Almost, The Number Twelve Looks Like You,
Cobra Starship, NOFX, I See Stars, End The Century, Versa Emerge, Brokencyde, Inhale Exhale, I Set My Friends On Fire,
I Killed The Prom Queen, Thrice, Story Of The Year, Marilyn Manson, August Burns Red, The Medic Droid, All Time Low, Senses Fail,
Our Last Night, Sky Eats Airplane, Life In Your Way, Light This City, Bringing Down Broadway, ON/OFF, アリス九號, X-Japan, Gazette.
I don't point to people randomly. Trust me, I have my reasons.
Tuesday, July 29, 2008
Two-faced mother fuckers. :D That's all I have to say today. Other than that, today's Chemistry test, I've officially screwed it. &I won't be suprised if I fail for it. Haha, if not, why say "screwed it"? So now, the song dedication for the Two-faced mother fuckers! :D Be grateful for this song dedication you bunch of ingrates.
You're no better, Reflect yourself in the mirror. &Think, what makes you think,
you're greater than others. Thick-skinned, lying, motherfucker.
Monday, July 28, 2008
Hmmm,
Today was amazingly scary. Hafizah came to school, still not completely fine from HFMD(Hand-Food-Mouth Diesease). Then, when Miss Loh came to know about her being in school, still ill with the diesease. She hurried over to my literature class, to send her home.
The only main point today was that, the social problems we have in our class. Well, all according to Miss Loh. She's upset with the fact that, even though they have gotten a high contagious diesease. They still came to school, not knowing the fact that they are actually getting more people into what they have. HFMD is a diesease that has killed small children, so why not able to kill adults? Who knows. Haha.
So yes, she's really upset with the fact that people like Sarasvathy & Hafizah, came to school even with HFMD. Hafizah is actually alright from the effects of the diesease, but due to the scars on her hands & all, from the diesease. Miss Loh has taken precaution to send her home. But after that, in class, most of us felt the itch getting on to us even though the class has ventilation & not depending on aircons.
Due to this, maths has been cancelled, so has Amaths, due to the fact that the bacteria is still around the class, so during the time we were supposed to have Maths/A-Maths, the whole class was being disinfected. Hahah. I have to admit, it's pretty scary seeing how painful it is to have HFMD. I don't want tooooooooooooooooo get eeeeeet!
Hahaha, so yea, okay. I've got the album by The Used, Lies For The Liars, and The Used, their EP. &I heard the song, Liar Liar(Burn In Hell). I found it pretty cool, so yezx, here's a empty video but with the song. Also I just managed to get Death Star, the lastest album by DGD(Dance Gavin Dance). Hell yez, it's better than anything they've done. Includin the demo tracks, Attack of the Dashing Young & Bold & The Rain In Vietnam (The Robot Vs. Heroin Battle Of Vietnam Demo). Both of their demo tracks are really good. Go youtube them to hear them. :D
Me & Zoloft, Get along real fine. Just like professors, &Their invention, Robots.
Saturday, July 26, 2008
Awesome-ness.
Hell yes, I found a few new bands (: Four Letter Lies & Fair Fight. Woohoo.
Hmmm, today, I was actually thinking, i'd stay at home the wholeeeeee day. But I texted Shan Qi rather he wanted to go play billard today, so since he was at his grandma house. We went, met up at 5:00p.m. Tian Haur & WeeLong went too. So yez, we did play.
Wa lau, you know. I was winning actually, but FOULED all the way, damnit. &Lost the most expensive match ._. $8, with WeeLong. So now he owes me $4, hahah. So I went off home earlier than them as I had to come home & take care of my sister ._. I seriously hate being a baby-sitter.
I walk, Up the staircase. Through the door, to find a light is beaming,
down across her hair. &It's so she need's to say, &I'll feel fine, all the moments in my life. Has led to this, which's is all worth.
Will you walk with me? Cause I can't see.
Wednesday, July 23, 2008
Awesome? Nah. It's just Fauxhawk, hahah. Got caught by Miss Jarina today. So I went to "cut" my fringe. Hahaha, I didn't do anything to eet, but instead, "shaved" off my sideburns and the back into a "V" shape. Well, near V that is. My fringe's thinner now, so I'll be able to use gel to place it up & not get caught anymore. Heh.
So ehhhh, the right's the front and the top, whereas the left is the uneditted back. It's not properly spiked up though, but hell. I won't care much,
I know I look like a bengzx in the right picture, ahaha. But I usually smile okay! :D
I'm emo, that's why I have the fringe covering my eyes *rolls eyes. Obviously I'm not. Ahahahah. Well, one thing I hated today, was mainly just standing on the hall ._. Hearing people say, GO HOME CUT, GO HOME CUT! What, my fringe longest means must torture me? You know how embrassing that was. But, whatever, at least I still have my fringe.
Monday, July 21, 2008
yay, the simplest pleasure of life. Watching Guns N' Roses MV! :D Ahahaha, this is good. Anyway, thank you Anis. For taking a snapshot of me. Heh. :D
This was taken when I went out with my Malay classmates to watch Batman : Dark Knight. It was pretty fun, haha, cept the fact that everyone had dates D:
Today, 21st July 2008.
Stressful day, haha, ultimately. Tomorrow too, I had to stay back an extra hour even though after SSP. Hahaha, for not doing my literature homework. Man, she got so fierce for the first time. Freaky when she screamed at us & told us to rot outside the class, ¬ to do the homework we owed, cause we'd have to stay back to do her work till 5.00p.m anyway. So that's it for today, was supposed to go do Social Studies homework with Joachim and Kok Chai, but we were all too tired to move out of the house, when we went home. Hahaa, doomed. I did my physics & d&t, amazingly. But looking at the paper, I've completely no thoughts on how to do it. It's so confusing, hahahah.
Someone introduced to me a new band today, &the vocalist's voice is really nice. I'm really impressed. :D
It's Bedlight for Blue Eyes! :D Hear this song out, it's not all hXc like Exile & all. His voice is just, calm. Well, good bye to everyone for the day.
My memories will,
Never lose to time, &I'll make you. Proud of me.
Sunday, July 20, 2008
Hahaha, I had fun yesterday. Loads of it. Well, cept the fact I was feeling like the odd one out. Haahahah.
Okay the best song EVER. Seriously!
It's the best of the best! :D That's all for today, I'll post about Saturday 19th 2008 some other time. Hah. I didn't manage to go to sentosa though.
Friday, July 18, 2008
Hahah, I talked to FeeFee with webcam and all just now. from around 11:10p.m onwards. But now FeeFee went to bed already as she has training early in the morning tomorrow. Okay, back to blogging about today. During school's character development period, I played Chinese Chess with Sherwin, & WON. HAH, IN YOUR FACE. After school, we went off to eat at Mac' Donalds. Eaten, talked to ShanQi about tomorrow's trip to Sentosa to play beach volleyball. &What to do later in the evening. We decided to go Ang Mo Kio Hub to play billard. As nearly every usual Friday. Hahah.
So played finish, I had to rush home cause my little sister was hungry. &there wasn't any thing considered dinner for her at home to eat. I went to buy Mc Chicken Burger for her & some sweets. Rushed to the interchange and managed to take the 73. Reached home and gave her the burger to eat. Hahah, she amazingly thanked me.
So later, about 8:00p.m++ FeeFee wanted me to come online, I would've anyway. Went online, talked there, kept talking and all, and around 11:00p.m. I think she randomly just said she wanted to hear me sing, cause she wanted to laugh at my GAY voice. Evil, much.
Okay, I sang for her since she felt a little down & all. &I asked, I can see from the webcam that you are on the brink of crying(I think that was what I said, I forgot). So she said, I was about to cry, before. So I questioned her, "before?" She said :"Before you started singing." Then I was like, WOA, she didn't say something mean for the first timeee, AWESOME! Haaaaahhaha. Then she said I was auntie cause I asked her to sleep early ._. Then later, when she was going off, she said sleep early. So I said, you're a auntie what! She pointed me a __ I got pwnz0r3d. Hahahaha, not really though. Okay that's all for today. YAY, tomorrow. Sentosa, finally again.
I think that the truth, Is that I'm scared. I also think that the truth, Is that I'm everything I hate.
Thursday, July 17, 2008
Fed up?
Well, for today, I did nothing much. Actually, today was the usual school day. Yez, with irritating D&T stuff to draw that's all. Today was just a tad bit special, NO SSP! :D That would be all, went to eat with guys. Later on, took a bus home. When the rest went off to near Serangoon Central area to play soccer. I wanted to just lie down to appreciate some acoustic music, so yez, I didn't go play soccer. &As usual, they made fun of me cause of not going to play with them. What's wrong not going to play soccer? Obviously nothing, but oh well. They wanted to insult me & all. I would just let them do it as usual, it's always been like this for 4 years. They've pretty much not changed at all. I don't know if that is a good or a bad thing. But still, if it makes them feel better about themselves when insulting me. I don't mind, seriously. After all, I've always been used to this since I've grown accustomed to the insults in school. I'm lucky there are people around me that will listen to my emotional rants & all. Like Chee Sen and Shan Qi, thank you, both of you. Hahaha, Chee Sen, I must have really scared you when I got so emotional for the first time in 4 years. But duh, there is always a point where a certain person can no longer bottle up the anger they have kept inside. &Needs to release them by just talking to someone about how they feel about others. Call it backstabbing partially, but everything is based on facts. Unlike them, I would rant on them, using descriptions that already is the truth. Rather than creating lame jokes, & all, to give themselves a laugh. Call me an asshole, cause I know I am one. But are you better? I doubt so. If you make fun of my image, how better are you compared to me? Not a tad bit better at all, sir. For all of you to know, this words are spoken to not just 1 person. But all in general. I've always not insulted all of you, if I did, it would be cause I think you've crossed the line, & also cause I think I'm no different from you, & not any better. So I don't have a position to curse, swear, and insult you based on your intelligence, looks & etc. All of us are 16years old now, any time soon, which would be really soon. We would get into JCs and Polytechnics. It's time to grow up now guys, really. It's just not cool to insult people so much about how they look anymore, be it jealously or cause you just hate them. It's time to act your age, everyone. We're 16year old kids. Anyway, this words are written down cause it makes me feel better to say this, rather than just scolding people. If you're unhappy with what I said, sure. Be unhappy, but actually. I was just letting off some steam off my chest. Cause I think I've "tanked" enough insults to be allowed to say all of this right now. So say I'm emotional, say I'm a scene kid, say I'm gay. In the end, does ganging up on your OWN friend and insulting him make you feel powerful? If it does, your a loser, much. Compared to what a loser I am, you would be worst now wouldn't you? Remember, 16 year olds. I think we would be the most childish bunch of 16years old around, cause I've never seen other 16 year olds act the way we do, wherever we are. Trust me, what I say are all the truth & if you think I'm saying about you, I just might be.
So here's a song by Relient K. Who I am hates Who I've Been, it's his acoustic version of his normal song. It's pretty good, that I have to admit. It pretty much means a lot, it's included in his new album, & also in Punk Goes Acoustic. Enjoy the music.
I don't want you to know, where I am, cause then you'll see, my heart in the saddest day, it's ever been, &this is no place to try, &live my life.
Wednesday, July 16, 2008
Uh Huh,
Today was pretty much boring. Hahaha, went to KFC at Rivervale Plaze today to eat my lunch, and then went home, other than that, nothing much to say already uh.So yes, today I listened to another acoustic version of the song by Relient K. The song is Who I am hates Who I've been.It pretty much describes how I feel. Cause I do hate what I've always been, & I pretty much am better than who I've been, but I still hate myself a little.
I'm sorry that,
it took me so long to change.
I'm sorry that, I'm not one to hold you there.
Tuesday, July 15, 2008
The most awesome-est song in the century our parents used to live their youth. Hahahah. It rules, I loveeeeeeeeeee Slash!
Today, I brought my PSP to school. Hahaha. On the way to school, I played God Of War, I got stuck, hahaha, so I paused and went to school to ask Aufa. So yez, I got over it with his help in what to do. &Now I'm stuck cause the minotaur and hell archers are raping my 455. Damnzx, I don't care about it anymore, I'll play with it after I cool down from being pissed. So yes, damn you spartan modeeeeeeeee of God Of War! *makes fist and shakes it.
Hell yes, My Sweet O' Child rocks, hahaha. :D Slash rules! I can't help but saying it. Oh yeeeeeeeeeeeeeea, today, Joachim borrowed a pair of spectacles(with no degree) from Hui Xuan, and wore eeet. He looked funny, hahahah. So I decided to try eeet, I wore eet, and after Hui Xuan took a picture with Joachim when he wore the spectacles, hahaha. She saw me wearing eeet, so she took a picture with me when I was drinking my bubble tea. D: It made me look totally emo! I WANT THAT PICTURE OF MEEEEEEEEE EMO-ING! Okay that's all for today.
We shook hands. Took a ride on the steeds of the sun. To run to the end of the underworld, to stop darkness of ruling, The earth once more.
Monday, July 14, 2008
Well, for the day of 13th July 2008
Honestly, yesterday, I felt really helpless after I listened to a song, Three Cheers for Five Years by Mayday Parade. Cause, it made me think so much on the way home from VivoCity. Before the emo-ing reasons are out, I'll talk about how lousy Red Cliff is. As you all know, Red Cliff is also known for the Battle of Chi Bi & That was why I wanted to watch it. So yes, I got the tickets, went in to watch with my brother while my mum and sister went to watch Hellboy(they said it was pretty good).*SPOILERS ARE COMING*
Yes, you've been partially warned, hahahah. Okay so this is what happens, mainly, it would be to watch for the main battle. The Battle of Chi Bi. BUT, the show was about minor battles before the battle of Chi Bi. &That's when I got really upset, cause, they only showed what they were going to do, but never showed the war yet. Fancy wasting 2hour++ of my time, to see the preparations for the main thing I wanted to watch, what's worst. We paid $10 for eeeeeeeeeet, like, wtfux.
Okay, so they said in the end, every formation has a weakness, no matter what it is, we just have to know it. So in the end, Zhuge Liang sends off his pigeon to do some "scouting". It gets back, they show a map full of the enemy ships on top of it. & does one thing, just lights the center boat on fire. Bham, they placed 3 fcuking stupid shit words on the screen.TO BE CONTINUED......
Awesome! I wasted my life watching Red Cliff when there wasn't even much nice battles. Only there was one nice one, the rest were boring. It was then the Zhuge Liang decided to use the Ba Gua(It comes from a tortoise's shell, not the food Ba Gua) formation. &Traps the enemy in sections and slowly kills them off, as they let the generals like Guan Yu&Zhou Yu out to fight and all. Which was pretty funny, it looked like it was a game. Slowly unleashing each boss and all. Hahahaha. Level 1, then level 2, then to level 3.
Hah, okay. Spoiler's over.
The emo-ing reason was that, the song, made me realize what a loser I must've been all this while. I don't go out with friends, I don't study. I don't do anything, I don't have a life. Also, it made me think, how nice would it be if I were to fall in love with someone nice. Someone so real, I could actually hug. Rather than a girl that will always be wasted on my dreams. It honestly made me depressed cause, like. I was thinking even if I were to love someone, that person wouldn't want to be my priority right? Cause I'm such a douche bag, loser, asshole & all. I'm not close to being nice at all, am I? So what's the reason for a person to even like/love me? Fact is. Ans: None, that's why Fabian doesn't feel any love. After thinking awhile, I've realized how much I long for someone I can lean on, for me to be someone else's priority, &for that someone to be my priority too. Other than studying & all.
I don't even know any girls, they don't talk to me, I don't talk to them, cause Idk what nice words I would say. Only a few nice friends would talk to me, &accompany me throughout the day, other than that, no one. It's always me, trying to talk to them via sms, msn. But they never ever do reply me, do they? Hah, irony much.
July 14 2008.
I realized if you type "July", you can also type "Hulk" easily, hahaha, lamezor. So today, we got back our maths test marks on algebra & as expected I failed badly. The reason for the amazing failure in maths would be, I didn't have the time and was too busy thinking about other things than a small minor test. Which now, has officially made me work harder for maths too. I can't believe I got 10/40. It's the first time I even failed a maths test. ._. Okay, that's all for today. I'm really sorry for not being able to go play Billard with you guys. My dad got home unexpectedly early, &he wouldn't let me out even when I promised that I'd be back fro dinner. Ah well, sorry SQ, QX & guys. Well, that's what happened today, the more interesting part would be above I guess. Have fun reading on how emotional I am. Hahahahha.
Too late, I'm sure. At long last, it's just another night. Another dream wasted on you. Just stay, here now, against me. You know the words, so sing along with me.
Saturday, July 12, 2008
Awesome-ness. Damn it, I just cut myself again(Screw D&T). D: Damnzx, I suckzor. Will update later, going out at 7++ for pool. Hahah. Off to play my guitar.
Friday, July 11, 2008
Dear Diary, I've cut myself today badly in the Design & Technology room. With my finger's cut in really deeply. With the skin flapping around. Which hurts like hell when I wanna pull it off, damn that sucked. What happened was that, I was drilling a hole into a PVC, it suddenly got stucked onto the drill & amazingly flew up and when I moved my hand aside, it minorly cut my left hand, & cut deeply into my right thumb. Hell yes, that felt great. Seeing the blood ooze out when I wash it in the tap, during the adrenaline rush, it's pretty normal you don't feel anything. So yes, I didn't feel anything, Mr Peng was over there, rushing to take out antiseptic cream and plasters, while the blood continued oozing out(Pure Awesomeness). Other than that, I went home, with parts of my D&T stuff to do tomorrow morning before going to school to touch up for D&T. Screw eeeeeeeet. I went out today to AMK Hub, but first went to AMK Library, to see SQ doing his F&N, trust me he did do, as much as you & I don't believe our eyes. I went to find the storybook I've always wanted to read, but couldn't find it anywhere, so I guess I'll have to buy it at Times.
After that, the Library closed at 9, &I was dying of hunger(I didn't eat dinner at all). So we walked out at 9.00pm to go get something to eat, we did. So later, Gerard, his girlfriend, & Tian Haur was waiting for us at K. Pool, so we hurried up to play. Damn it, first match, I lost at 4th position ): So I had to pay, duh-uh. 2nd match, I wouldn't won at 2nd place, buttttttttt, I fouled when I hit the black ball wrongly ): Reducing my points from 29 to 22, which means Gerard's girlfriend won me by 4points. So thinking that I could still win, I accidentally "parked" for her the brown ball(4 points) & she scored in the ball, making her 30points, totally demorallizing me. So SQ, Tian Haur & Me, went to pay the table money. Which was 6.60 total for the 2nd match, damnzx. Meaning I lost a total of freakingzx 4.20 for the stupid 1hour of billard! But well, it's worth for a training session, lolzor. Okay, good night everyone. Including you my beloved diary.
The moment I held the key,
The whole world closed on me. The moment I ruled the world,
was the moment I lost my sanity.
Thursday, July 10, 2008
Hahaha Hahhaa, today, I stayed back to do d&t. &I just spent my whole day doing d&t I guess. Considering I came home after D&T, &again doing it at home. To make 3 pages for my cd rack for like 2hours(I think). O:
Currently now, I'm laughing at the Teevee programme The Showdown. I've got to admit, the speakers are hilarious. Hahahah. This is hilarious.
Oh yes, I read friendster & saw Wendy saying that she met an car accident and has a MC for 4days. I hope you're fineeeeeeee! You'd better be, so you can go help me find pokemon shirts some day(If you ever read this), hahahah. Anyway, I think I have nothing much to talk about today. Lol, cept the fact that today. I played God Of War on the PSP. &Hella loveddddddddd the awesome blood and all. :D The blood and fighting was awesome, so yes, I like it. I like gore, so whatttttt, big deal, Fabian's a sadist. That's good, no?
Wednesday, July 9, 2008
Woooooo, I had Chinese Basic lessons today. &yez, it wwas fucking boring! :D That was about the whole day, today we had a test on algebra & for the first time ever, I did not have enough time to finish all the questions. D: So yehz, I had some blanks, doomed, I'll fail fo sho(for sure). Okay, that was it, that was the day, boring? Of course it is, it's a school day, including chinese basic after school, how boring is that. Oh oh! The most interesting thing today was that, Chinese Basic Lessons allowed us to watch the show Secret by Jay Chou, the piano thingy. The piano battle was hella interesting, other than that, it was pretty boring. Hahahah. Okay that's for today. &Here's a new Music Video, on Pray for Plagues by Bring Me The Horizon. The Vocalist hair is AWESOME, so silky-smooth(Zohan). Okay, so the lyrics are here. Pray for Plagues - Bring Me The Horizon
FLYYYYYY! She starts her new diet, of liquor and dick, Just like Hollywood but laced in sick. The sun goes down and so does she.The sun goes down and so does she. Sold out the love that she had left with a cut of the throat. Drinks all round on her before she strolls to the moat. The sun goes down and so does she.The sun goes down and so does she. Count your fucking...Blessings!Come on!Count your blessings, Because I'm counting every lie.Count your blessings,Because I'm counting every lie. Counting every lie.Christ, I'm asking you for just one thing I'm asking you for just one thingEradicate, this disease.Close your eyes. Pray for plagues. Oh Lord cleanse this earth And bring upon our doomsday. Close your eyes.Pray for plagues.Cleanse this earthAnd bring doomsday. She starts her new diet, of liquor and dick, Just like Hollywood but laced in sick. The sun goes down and so does she.The sun goes down and so does she. So clap your hands to the soundOf everyone first born dying now. Watch the rivers flow with blood Death with stand were life once stood[x3]Close your eyes. Pray for plagues.Cleanse this earthBring our doomsday.
Tuesday, July 8, 2008
Pure awesomeness.
Holy shit,
I'm drop dead tired today, cause I hardly managed to catch some sleep yesterday. Most probably was cause I slept too late during the past few days, affecting the time "usual" sleeping time. Anyway. today was usual, had Chem practical lessons for ssp today, including Physics practical lessons during class time. &Went through the re-examination Physics paper during ssp. HELL YES! I got 47/65 for it, hahahaha. That means I got an A2, and FYI, the retest isn't the same paper as the exam one. So yes, it's an achievement for me. Well, not really though.
Well, today was insane actually, I realised that if I did not do my Social Studies homework, which is the N' Level paper on the Three Gorges Dam project. I would get my name written down onto the Pink Booklet,in other words, I would have my parents called up and suffer a huge scolding.
So, as mean as it is, I rushed my social studies during 35mins of English Period(Whole of it). I managed to finish A, B and D. I handed them up, with a blank on C. Giving an excuse as I don't know how to do, but actually, it was just cause I was too lazy to continue anymore. Okay, well, that's all for today. &Suddenly, I have the urge to find a decent girlfriend, fuck I'm desperate much.
I admit I long for a really long term relationship with a normal girl that is femine. But it seems impossible for me to get a girl as I am right now. Everyone thinks I know really a huge bunch of girls, &I have a variety to choose from. Fact is, no, I don't talk to girls, I do. But I hardly talk to any, &No, I doubt any girl would like me cause I'm such a dirtbag and all. Okay, enough of self-pitying. Off to talk about yesterday.
On 7th July 2008,
Dear Diary,
My beloved listener(cranky shit). I had truckloads of fun today. Except of the fact that Koh Bifang(Not my sister, she'd be an embarassment). Made me laugh like crazy, &embarassed me at the same time. Why? This is why, I called her a bitch for fun when we were waiting for the show to start. &She said, call me a bitch one more time, so I said:"Bitch!" Jiahan was sitting beside her with nuts. So she took one nut, and tried to stuff it up my nose. Like, zOMG! I was like, saying :"what the fuck!" Luckily, it didn't manage to go completely up my nose*laughs. It was a failure for her sadly, Jiahan started laughing like a tard, so I laughed at myself for not knowing that she'd do something as stupid as that. Hell yes, she's crazy. I knocked her on the head(Lightly, duh), and kept poking her and scolding her a crazy shit or something. Hahahaha, she said stop, so I did. Other than that, it was pretty fun and all, cept that we had to decide for at least half an hour or more. We stood outside the Nokia shop at the basement at Plaza Singapura, and hell. I looked up, I saw this girl. She kept staring at me, if I'm not wrong, I'd think she that she's someone I know, cause she seemed familiar. I'm guessing, she's Valerie? Okay, I think it was her, but I didn't do anything, she & her friends went down the escalator to where we were standing, & She & her friends were talking, they took glances at me I guess, since I doubt they knew anyone else among my current group I was with. Honestly, I thought I did something wrong to them or something. Cause I think I've always offended people by accidental bumps or something. *laughs, but I've never been in trouble with other kids. OH & HELL YES, there's this group of people. 2 guys and 3girls. Wow, when I and my friends were eating at the foodcourt upstairs, you know what they did, my dear diary? Since there were 5 people, and they were sitting on a table for 4, one of the guys was a "extra" shit and sat outside of nowhere, hell yes that was really easy to differ. No only did that ugly shit act all big with his arms like a typical gangster. He kept staring at my friends and I. Well, we stared back of course, well, not me though, cause at first, I didn't know who they were referring to. I know I'm slow, I blame it on my intellectual abilities, I lack social skills & all. So after awhile, I know who it was, but I didn't bother. Okay, we stood up and walked off, he looked at us, I turned back to clearly stare at him. Hah, he's funny. I wouldn't brag that I'm all brave and all, but I would certainly dare to stare at him. We went to pee and all, went up to wait for the girls to come and buy snacks for the movie&such. He walked past us, I guess I was the only one who noticed, so he looked at me, I looked at him, his girlfriend(I think). Pulled him along, but of course, he didn't stand still to look at me. He walked off slowly, so I continued looking at his direction(not staring). I was just appreciating my music actually, but I guess he thought I was staring, he kept taking glances backwards. Well, even if we were to have a fight, which I doubt we'd ever start it. Cause we aren't violent kids. We'd win fo sho. I'm sure you're asking why aren't you, my dear diary? It's cause we outnumber them, counting 2 girls as 1 guy, they would make 3.5 guys, which we have 6/7 guys, roughly being 2x of what they are. Oh well, that's all for that day & all. &I got a flu after bathing yesterday, today being the 8th of July. Shit, the tendency to talk to guys saying that why can't I have decent girlfriend which sums up to a long term relationship is starting again. *controls.
Can anyone tell me a good free WMA to MP4 converter? &it's place to download it, I wanna place "You Don't Mess With The Zohan" & "Bruce Almighty" into my Ipood. Till tomorrow. All new fav. band is. Bring Me The Horizon! :D Pray for plagues RULZOR.
I look into your polished eyes. I see a man, using a doll to represent his soul. A claw is a claw, no matter blunted or painted.
Monday, July 7, 2008
Hmmmmmmmmmmmmmm, too tired to blog. Had fun today, &Bryan bet with me $10 on something, &lost. But didn't pay me in the end, chicken shit. Stupid excuses you give. Pussy. Well, school's on tomorrow, till then. I'll talk about what happened today, when I get back from tomorrow.
Sunday, July 6, 2008
Hahhahaha, I am back home finally. Well, today was pretty fun. I hate elaborating on it since I'm so tired. But I would like to say, today was good. Cept having to wait 1hourALONEat Marche at Vivo City. Like wtfux, my mom and sister was busy shopping, while I was in the hot non-windy night sweatting my balls off(Marche had a ultime long line). I was supposed to queue up with my mom at 7:30p.m. But she went shopping and forgot what's called time management, and came over at 8:20. &considering I went there early to que, I queued more than an hour I think. I got fed up cause my mom always talks about being on time and all(Fancy her not doing what she talks most about).
She made an excuse saying, we were walking from the end of Vivo to here mah, that's why so long. Like, ._. It only took me like, 5mins to go from the arcade to the Marche, how long can she take? O:
Ah damn, I won't vent my anger anywhere, cause I'm supposed to be happy right now. Lol. My dad bought a awesome huge ass 42inch LCD TV. Yay, &Now I'm watching IronMan again on it. It's niceeeeeeeeeeee.
Okay, end of today. &&I could have sworn I saw someone oh so pretty, that she looked so familiar to me. But oh well, too bad I don't have the balls to do shitzor when I see people or something.
The face of a Man that longs to see,
His soul. Muttering about the moments,
We didn't even share.
Saturday, July 5, 2008
Lyrics for, NJ Falls Into The Atlantic.
It's 4 am and we will stalk again. The princess and your better queen. On the fourth day of july. Deep in summer's eye, Naked like the truth should always be. So speak your mind. (Dont folow, with your foot) All this pain here. (All comes from, your trial) I won't listen. (Your memory, is bleeding) My lies are faced with blue. Coming straight from off the wires. Southern face and drunken father. Crying as shes carving in her flesh. It's 4 am and we will stalk again. The princess and your better queen. On the fourth day of july Deep in summer's eye, Naked like the truth should always be. This falls on (All palm trees, and trash heaps). This burning bed (Where my eyes, will not sleep). Watching romance from a far, See bleeding from the glass on my feet. Learning I love the smell of flesh. It's 4 am and we will stalk again. The princess and your better queen. On the fourth day of july Deep in summer's eye, Naked like the truth should always be. An angel, on his two knees. Arms stretched, toward a red sea Of violence, and assultry done. The scenic, view of carnage. Caused by, the sore in his hands. The beauty resonates in birth. Its plain to see, the wind beneath the trees. Flowing free, the summer breeze is sweet. But in this place, I'm choked by my own air. I love the taste, of your blackened lips. It's 4 am and we will stalk again. The princess and your better queen. On the fourth day of july. Deep in summer's eye, Naked like the truth should always be.
Oh yes, Happy Birthday to my now 17th year old brother, Varian Koh Hong De.
Wooo.
I think I get to watch Hancock today. :D With family at Vivo City later on, it's better than nothing I guess. Heh. Oh yes, enjoy the song by Light This city, it's good. Really. Oh yes, I'll stop blogging now, till later in the night.
Awesome live performance by the awesome band, Light This City.
Rawrrrr. Hahahaha, today was pretty fun, cept I wasted 1 hour to go to Toa Payoh, and in the end, I was undeage to enter the stupid snooker room. ._. Well, in school today. Was really happy/weird/awesome. Cause my dearest Angie, gave me a cupcake saying: "Hello Dearest❤ from unknown." Since she did that, obviously I wouldn't know who is it till she told me, or was it from someone else. I forgot. Okay, so the main point now is that. Here the story comes.
Early in the morning I went to buy 3cupcakes, 2 for Angie, and 1 for myself, since I thought. Since I'm such a total ungrateful asshole, no one would send me any cupcake or what so ever. So wanting to try out the cupcake, I ordered one to be delivered to my classroom, so I can eat in class. The name was empty too, so yeh, I expected a empty shit, and just a cupcake in it to eat.
Here he comes, the delivery man with cupcakes. I took it without feeling suprised, but looking at the message on it, there it was. The one above. I got shocked and wondered who is it from, the only dearest I had was Angie. Hahaha, so after school, I went to find her and ask if she had the cupcake I sent her, she said, pretty telepathic huh. Cause, we both sent each other similar messages, cept that she has the ❤ sign behind, with the unknown and that I had a (: face with my name on it.
So yea, it's freaky but heyyyyyyyyyyyy, it shows that we were meant to be. (P.S We're not in a relationship.) *giggles. Today was fun after school too. We went to play pool at AMK Hub. Hahaha, me, Tian Haur, ShanQi & Weelong. I lost all the matches la, wtfux. I actually won the first round by 7points, but accidentally screwed up ._. losing. Being dismoralised, I again made another mistake, and totally lost everything. During the second match, being totally dismoralised, I totally gave up. So the chain of fouls continued in the second match, &I let Gerard take over me since I had no mood. Later on, we went to near Tian Haur's house to eat, WOW, it's nice and it was sooooooo cheap. A huge ass chicken chop with mashed potato and coleslaw and a bun for just $4.50. &the cheng teng there was only $1.20 for the usual sized bowl. Pretty cheap for the prices in other areas now I guess. :D
Oh well, that's it for today (: I'll stop here already, wooohooo, I had so much to blog about today! Suh-weet.
For the Sake of Salvation. We Kill, We Rob.
Thursday, July 3, 2008
Calling All Cars by Senses Fail. Old School, yet good. Be sure to hear it. If you want it, talk to me in msn, I'll send it to you. :D
Wooohooo.
For the first time, I managed to reach home before 5.00p.m on a Thursday! Suh-weeeeeet. Man, today was D&T SSP, I went to finish up my last part, but realised I still have my emblem(Maybe I won't do it), and another iron rod to bend properly again. Man, I promised myself to finish it up
Oh yes, I remembered that I have Social Studies Task 4 to do. &I still have no idea how to link people. hahaha, I'm sorry everyone. I'll link you all when I know how to do it properly. I'm watching Lilo&Stitch now. Heehee, it's nice! :D
Well, as for what happened today. Hmmm, the most exciting thing today was during MT lessons, as I'm a epic phail in Chinese. I take Chinese Basics, yesyes. Mock me all you want. So at the classroom, Jiahan and others came into 4E2 classroom, with cards to play and all. Wen Chuan and her classmates also skipped the lesson and was in the classroom.
Other than that, nothing much was exciting already. &I also have to do Physics now. I'll be off now, byebye. Anyway, I'll be posting a new music vid if I'm bored later on.
Regret will be your bride. So I'll Pray with my eyes closed.
Goodbye, Goodnight, forGood.
Wednesday, July 2, 2008
Woo, the video for Hey John, What's your name again? by The Devil Wears Prada.
Mehhhhhhhhh, it was one of most boring days of the week I guess. Wow, I actually blogged again, lolzor. Okay, so today was a killer for school, fuck. They fucking gave us two test in a day. Screw eet. It was like, bloody racism shit for SS. &a poem which was pretty much easy. But I did not manage to complete my SS ): Well, after school, we went off to Compass Point again, &ate at Mc' Donalds. Well, another reason for going there would be to see Darren (amazingly)mugging, with the help of Mr Luo.
Well, that's all the interesting things for today. Maybe I should post the poem since I've got nothing much to do, afterall, I'll be playing games later.
*licks lips* Mmmmmmmmmmmmmm, Mummy's coming back with Curry Chicken Noodle, wooowooo. Good food's coming my stomach.
Well, for a nice WoW like game, head on to a new game made by YouXiLand. http://www.returnofwarrior.com/ They have an event going on during the weekends. Having 2x EXP and DROP rate. Well, you guys can try it out if you want. Haha, it's really fun when you're high level enough to PvP people. More details on the game will be on the website.
Meh, I just changed my mind about posting the poem, too darn bored. O:
Come on A Skylit Drive, hurry up and release your bloody album "Wires".
I long to sing and dance with you.
Please come with me and let me show you that I know, that at times it may be hard. Where's the Underground Palace's
Queen.
Tuesday, July 1, 2008
Rawrrrrrrrrrrr! This is my first time, making a blog. &A huge thank you to Nichell. For making the skin for me. d:
Well, today was pretty much the usual. Going to school, listening to lessons half awake. Today was considered a "School-Ends Later than Usual" day. Cause people had Amaths, and we had to wait till 3.00pm to attend our extra lessons. We ended at 5.00pm++ today.
Joachim, Song Wen & I went off to find Angie, Bifang, and Melody after the lessons. We just went there with an intention to actually just say "Hi" and "ByeBye" to them. But oh well, since they wanted to go to Compass Point, I & Joachim also went together with them. Melody went off home, since we decided to go to Compass Point. Angie supposively wanted to take Bus. No. 156 with us home. But in the end, she had to go off because she was rushing to tuition at Hougang Point. &I told her we just missed the bus. So she had no choice but to take the faster and more frequent bus No. 159. Meh, I hope she'll have a safe trip to school tomorrow. If that bastard tries to touch her again, I'll freaking chop your little peanut-like balls off. Including your eraser-sized penis.
Wow, I realised how fun blogging is actually. I can actually curse all I want here! O: Woohoo, my ranting area, suh-weet. Okay, I think I should stop blogging now. It's gay, well, pretty gay. But not that gay till I won't blog.
yay, the simplest pleasure of life.
